dooode,

I haven't wrote anything in a looong time,
Well, I'm done with it for now.
Im pretty much done with everything right now.
I feel so alone.

I have nothing else to say,
life is depressing and I'm only 19
Soo, everyone says Erica please,
girl your still young.
Well if this is what is like right now,
I dont want to be around for the rest.

Im just sick and tired of all this shit.
What the hell?
What did I do so bad the reason as to way this is all happening.
one thing after another.
I use to be so happy, so outgoing.
guess again.

Anyways, im done. I wont be using this for some time.
thanks for reading but Im done for now.
later,

-> OVERWHELMING

is one of the simplest ways to describe life.

I found out today that my aunt passed away last night :(

How they can be here one minute and gone the next.
This will be my third funeral this year.
Can I just say that this is the worst year I have ever endured.
I am ready for it to be over, please.
I'm in a state of shock and haven't reallly accepted the fact that she is gone.

I feel so alone.
lost.
angry.
upset.
confused.

I am so weak,
like raw, will it get better?

I can't handle anything more.
The time when I need somebody the most and they arn't there.

So,
Aunt La Verne ,, R.I.P
Grandpa Ed,, R.I.P &&
Lenny,, R.I.P
I love you guys, so so much =/